Allie's Secret ; )

Kinda dumb having a place I came to write to get things off my chest...where I never worried about what it said...I now have to watch what I say.
Pretty dumb.

People should... mind their own business? Yeah, that works.
Life's pretty awesome except for the lack of boyfriend. :( I miss him. A lot.
Im really torn inside about it too. I've been struggling to understand why Im hated...so suddenly. Maybe it was already there and I didnt notice...maybe it was slowly coming and I didnt see the signs. I dont know.
I do know, that it's pretty unjust.
Im supposed to ignore what other people say because they're just emotional and angry...
but if it's me..then it's taken full heartedly. Every thing I say is made to be ... sudden truth of how I feel. When really, I say a lot of shit out of spite and anger in the moment.
Happened all the time as a kid, told my family I hate them.
I dont. They're amazing. I said it though, and they knew it's just the heat of the moment.
Why dont other people understand that? They can say it and it's just emotions, but I cant.
Trey gay.

Im pretty much over it though. Not my fault.
All I gotta do is get my jobs lined up. Got 2, now I just need a P/T weekend job. :)
Here's my plan:
Once I get paid I wont walk an hour to work, but take a cab.
Country Time in the morning.
Boston Pizza in the evening.
Golf course on the weekends. Hopefully it all lines up. :)

Also, my savings plan!
Im going to open up three new savings accounts.
:)
One: Savings for my trip back to BC. <3
Two: My trip to New York with Jori. <3 Pre-wedding thing for her.
Three: My trip to Europe. I wanna go with my sister and maybe two friends. See the world, backpacking... It's an experience I would have LOVED my big sister to take me on if I had one... hope she'd enjoy it the same way.
Four: Savings for an apartment and life without a job post surgery.

I say four because I already have a savings account opened. :)
Yes. It's quite a lot of money to be saved. But the Europe thing wont happen for at least 2 years...and the NY wont happen for a year or so.
And I have 6 or 7 months until the others.
Ill put priority with saves on account four and one. :)
I calculated that I can save up to 2k for the apartment thing..in 6 months and I havent done the calculating for BC yet. But! I dont have to worry about rent yet..because my uncle said not to worry about it. He's worried about me getting on my feet and being able to stand alone.

Haha...side note! This makes me giggle. Im sitting here crosslegged on a chair away from the computer with the wireless keyboard. Looking at the tv and watching it...while I type. Makes me laugh because if Brad saw me right now he'd be angry. :P He hated that I can type on my phone and the computer without looking...and yet so fast.

Back to the rest. My uncle and aunt are wanting me to save as much as I possibly can for life. Im ready for that. :) I am ready to rake in the cash and store it all up. Without rent, for now, it's not going to be that hard. :) Hopefully I can get the jobs I want. I already have Country Time lined up for the mornings, got hired today. :) Training for BP starts the last day of my work week I have planned...or they gave me. :) It sucks..but my first day isn't until the 9th of March. It will work out though.
This Saturday I get to go to the job fair for the golf course. I will apply for full time nights though, because if BP falls through I can have that. If not, Ill just change it to PT weekends. :) How epic would that be if Im working 3 jobs? THREE cash flows. Ha!
Yes..I could get worn out easy...
But I'm going to pace myself. I mean...I don't know. All of the places I would be going to...will be upbeat. :) Each day isn't going to be like another, which I like.
Now I just need to work on having the memory I need. xD CT doesn't have the screens Mcdicks did. Gonna have to remember 4 orders in a row..yay me! I'm sure I can do it. :)
I have a big problem though.
I plan things out...way too much. Because of it, when things on my list don't happen, I get depressed. I need to move past that.

Woah. I just noticed that my keyboard has a clock on it... WTF?!

I dont wanna talk amymore... I think I've updated you all so far.
By all...I mean my BFFS...who I believe should know about my life.
So bugger off.