Tired of that thing in human nature...

Okay. Where do I begin.

There's been a whole hell of a lot of shit going on. Still a little..rusty I guess.
I guess I started this because I really needed someone to vent to. Im honestly completely done with this house. Done, finished.
I cant believe how ridiculous my family is. Im extremely upset about this therapy bullshit. Apparently my sister brought it on herself. She's the one who did it, and shes the one who got everyone involved.
Actually, it was you. You're the one who called the cops saying she ran away. You're the one who involved the child services because you screamed at the lady and insulted her. Yeah, that's not going to make them go away. They are so ridiculous. This show was saying most people will think of troubled children in...a "deal with them" way. I agreed and said its not just a fix the child situation. It's everything. The people, the environment, the actions. The reply I got for this was that she agreed. People do it way too much. I was completely baffled. How can she be so completely blind to her own actions. Does she actually tell herself that she is doing everything right? That she is the perfect mother, that all her choices are in the best interest and her ideas are right?? Like, fuck!
Their idea of this, therapy bullshit, is that it is my sisters fault. They are doing nothing wrong, and they are giving her everything. She is the one acting badly and she is just a bad child. Cool. That's going to work. Lets just deny every single thing we do, and say it's her. We do everything right. We give her opportunities. We encourage her to go out and experience life. YA RIGHT! You do NONE of that! Stop blaming, I'm tired of it! Please, GROW UP and act like parents! You two sit. And you sit. And then, you bitch. You complain. You insult and you put down. Im tired of it. Stop denying everything. You will sit there and tell me to my face that you dont leave things laying around. You dont just sit all day. You dont insult your children and you dont act more like children then parents.
Oh, wait.
My bad. You will, after an hour of denying, say if I do it, everyone else does. Real mature. Followed by a couple more hours of you complaining and snapping back making the conversation go absolutely no where but in circles.
Either that, or you will just shut off and then later say everyone blames YOU and everyone thinks YOU are the only problem. Wow, maybe you could take a step back and see that's what you have been doing for years to my poor 16 year old sister! Im disgusted.
You are those people who should have NEVER had kids. No worries, people, you will know my feelings the second she returns. Seeing as you have no home therapy until SHE is here. Because, clearly, that's the only fucking reason you're having them.

So after I bring this up to my mother, and she continues to go on about how my sister brought it on to herself...
How is that to talk about a kid anyway? A teenager, still growing and learning... you treat her with such disrespect and lack of luck...you make me sick. It happened with me, and Im sick of seeing it happening to my baby sister. Be parents, not fourth graders.
Im all over the place...

The reason Im here is because my pathetic step dad continues to yell at my other sister and antagonize her. Annoying, yes. But today she asked for some chocolate and he proceeded to tell her it's unhealthy for her and bad. I held my tongue until she was in her room, in bed. Then I told them that chocolate is, in fact, not unhealthy for you. I didn't want them to lie to her, because it is a lie. They argue that it is bad, and then my mother stands up swearing under her breath about how I always start arguments and continues to complain all the way to the car until they leave. Awesome right? After my anger has subsided, it makes me sad.
All of this makes me sad.
The last couple of days I've been feeling incredibly stupid, and bored. Nothing to stimulate my brain or anything. Nothing to learn, and no way to grow.
But because of this, I feel so sad inside. For them mostly.
They are that dumb. Like, I think I'm dumb. And the way they act, and the things they say they say they know, it's sad. It only increases the theory they are still both children inside.
Their maturity level is so low, and their arrogance is extremely high. It makes me sad, and I feel pitty.
My writing is pretty shitty this time, and it's not saying much for me.. but hell. I just have to get it off my chest somehow, right?

Boyfriend and I are still together. : )
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Knee is finished, Im just waiting for it to heal. September 22nd is the day I fly out. I haven't told him yet, I want to surprise him. :) So stoked!
This physio though might be holding me back...
If they say I cant get on a plane then, Im gonna have to book it back to October. Which, may I say, SUCKS BALLS! That will mean that in the last YEAR I have only been with him for a month.
Quite a despicable fate.
Soon though. :) I will be in his arms. (:
So happy. ^^ You have NO idea. haha! Who am I even talking to?
Im done for the night, leg is starting to hurt.
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